突然好想谈恋爱！！

今年2011身边很多朋友都嫁了。。那我呢？我会有这么一天吗？看到每个朋友都找自己的幸福，想要嫁人的欲望就更强了。。好想要有个人疼我，爱我，关心我，呵护我，宠我等等。。怎么我身边都没有啊？？有时候我真的觉得累了，想找个人依靠。但看到手机里都无法找到那个人的时候，心灵觉得很无助~~真的很无助~~

我都已经空床了五年。。六年都要来了。。但我就是还是单身！！

我要谈恋爱啊~~~~~~~

没有的结果

为什么我时常想一些没有结果的对象？？没缘分的人和没可能的人呢？？我是不是太喜欢妄想？爱发白日梦？我觉得是。。有个疑问是我永远找不到答案。那就是我的另一半在那？！我会一直单身吗？说不担心也是骗人的。。连郑桂华也找到她的另一半了。。那我呢？？难道我的一生都找不到至爱吗？已经二十五岁了，还没谈过一次真真的恋爱！！为什么？？为什么？？我只想要谈一场恋爱！！难道不能吗？？唉，算了吧！！顺其自然吧！！说道是容易！！郑美淦，醒醒吧！！不要再发白日梦了啦！！

我的幸福

幸福？我的幸福在哪呢？我会与幸福遇见吗？我和它有缘吗？还有很多很多的疑问，有谁可以帮我回答麽？我想应该没有吧。。连我自己都找不到答案。

郑美淦，醒醒吧！！

郑美淦的幸福还没来找她。。

The moment to awake

This is second times im writing blogging. I never borrow money from anyone but this had happen first time in my life on 01/05/2011.. Its really tough o say the word can borrow me money?? Some more i borrow from my youngest brother.. I tell myself it just will be happen once in my life wont have second times. But this time no success borrow the money. It is good cause i wont borrow again for second times. I tell myself i wont let myself get down like that anymore...

One more thing is i need to awake from the previous car accident and become independently from asking people give me a ride to anywhere.. There is one person im really thanks he a lot and im owe him a lot. 我必须从车祸的阴影跑出来。。要让自己更独立不要太依赖某人。。郑美淦，你是做得到的。。你要相信自己！！郑美淦，加油！加油！

First time...

First time?? This is first time i blogging. How could it happen? Now i got a lot of thing in my mind but don know where and how to start.. But anyway my feeling all is mixed up.. Oklah,me stop here. got anything i will update again.. See u.. ^^